Posted in Mixed Six, Random Thoughts

Control

The world is always spinning and sometimes it feels as though it is spinning upside down. It’s hard to hold on, even though there’s gravity that ties me to this Earth, I do not feel as though I am a part of it. The Earth spins so out of control that I start to feel it’s heaviness and speed in my chest, I start to suffocate, full of anxiety. I spin around and around and around, I cannot let go. I step back and attempt to catch my breath only to taste the familiar scent of exhaustion. Then I awake. I awake surrounded by the ones who judge us, I awake to the ones who tell me I am not good enough today, I am not good enough any day. I slowly cusp my ears to stop their angry words from entering my soul but they find themselves slipping through the cracks of my fingers and then again, I hear the world judging me for things that I have no control.

I step up and move forward, pushing through the judgmental people, I then realize these people are the same ones who claim they wouldn’t hurt me, claim that they love me and want what’s best for me. They love me? They want what’s best for me? Yet, they hurt me with their knives in my back. It is those that are the reason I do not trust anyone. That I do not give someone the chance to hold the knife and that I do not turn my back and always look people straight in the eyes, never lose eye contact.

The fear of every one else looking upon me, judging me comes to surpass in time. I learn to be my own person, I learn to be a better person, and I learn to adapt to the world around me and instead of attempting to be a part of a world that I do not understand, I move forward and I create my own world, one that I am so familiar with, one that I am comfortable in.

 

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Keto Challenge

Hello everyone! It’s been such a long time since I’ve made an update on here. I really need to start doing better at creating posts, my life is just so busy and there would be such good information that I could post daily so that you could follow me throughout my life. I’m just super busy. We actually just moved, we’re not even finished with the entire move, I’ll update you later on that and how it went.

I want to discuss the Keto diet today. As you know awhile back, maybe a little less than a year ago I attempted to do Whole 30 and I completely and totally utterly failed the challenge. Day 10 hit and I was so sick because of the sugar addiction and breastfeeding, I just couldn’t do it. After that I did attempt to do Paleo which I didn’t necessarily fail, I still pretty much stick to the diet except it was difficult over summer when I’d go visit family and they would cook. I know what’s healthy eating and what’s not now, which is amazing.

The thing about Keto that I find highly challenging is the fact that I don’t eat dairy and that’s totally okay on the Keto challenge. Then it limits your fruit intake because it is a Low Carb, High Fat diet. I’m worried about that, I love my fruits and veggies. I totally failed being vegetarian though, that is a discussion for another day as well.

This challenge is obviously going to be difficult for me and I’ve been waiting an entire year to start it because of how restrictive it is. The reason I had to wait is that my baby just turned a year old last month and I still currently breastfeed him, just not as much.

I want to be able to have my followers follow with me through this journey and see if I can get on the right path to a healthy lifestyle. I plan on including exercise and I am also taking Slique from Young Living, yes I know you should not digest oils, please if you read this, don’t take my word for digesting oils, I am doing this out of my own decision making. I suggest you read up on the safety of oil ingesting before you continue down that path.

Now, you know I don’t post a blog every day, I am going to try to be better at it. I will try to update at least once a week on the Keto diet, but daily on my Facebook page, please follow me here.