Posted in Mixed Six, Random Thoughts

Control

The world is always spinning and sometimes it feels as though it is spinning upside down. It’s hard to hold on, even though there’s gravity that ties me to this Earth, I do not feel as though I am a part of it. The Earth spins so out of control that I start to feel it’s heaviness and speed in my chest, I start to suffocate, full of anxiety. I spin around and around and around, I cannot let go. I step back and attempt to catch my breath only to taste the familiar scent of exhaustion. Then I awake. I awake surrounded by the ones who judge us, I awake to the ones who tell me I am not good enough today, I am not good enough any day. I slowly cusp my ears to stop their angry words from entering my soul but they find themselves slipping through the cracks of my fingers and then again, I hear the world judging me for things that I have no control.

I step up and move forward, pushing through the judgmental people, I then realize these people are the same ones who claim they wouldn’t hurt me, claim that they love me and want what’s best for me. They love me? They want what’s best for me? Yet, they hurt me with their knives in my back. It is those that are the reason I do not trust anyone. That I do not give someone the chance to hold the knife and that I do not turn my back and always look people straight in the eyes, never lose eye contact.

The fear of every one else looking upon me, judging me comes to surpass in time. I learn to be my own person, I learn to be a better person, and I learn to adapt to the world around me and instead of attempting to be a part of a world that I do not understand, I move forward and I create my own world, one that I am so familiar with, one that I am comfortable in.

 

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Posted in Mixed Six

Purge…AND… I’m out✌🏻

Wait… purge?

Have you ever just needed someone’s attention and it’s like you’re screaming so loud but yet no one can hear or see you? Almost as though you’ve become a ghost to people that matter to you. Now don’t get me wrong I am very much aware that people have their own lives and they must live them. However, I am a firm believer that we all need the comfort of other people and to have others in our lives. It’s not healthy to be lonely.

What am I getting at?

Three years ago I left the face of the book, friends, family and everything. The tension and drama got so bad that I was unable to handle the stress of FB. Well, last year I realized how important it is to stay in the zone with my kids school and I can do it easily but FB. Which made me reactivate it and thus starting an entire new chapter in my social media frenzy. I am calling it quits again. I don’t want to be that close to people. I don’t want to check my FB 24/7 to see what others are doing, I don’t want to see someone who dislikes me or me dislike them liking things and then creep on their stuff, I don’t want to feel entrapped in the world of FB and all the problems that come with it. Thus… I am not deactivating it but I will not be participating in my FB profile.

What does this even mean?

It means though I will have an active profile and have friends on there I will not be updating you on my life. Now, I may continue to add photos of the kids every now and then. I will be on my group and still running it. I will have messenger installed on my phone in case teachers need to reach me. I will be available for contact. I will also be running my FB Page with the same name.

All Other Social Media….

I have deleted all my social media apps from FB, Snapchat, all the way to Instagram. If you really want to find me I guess you would know how.

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Posted in My Opinions

Time4Learning Review

I usually don’t do too many reviews on my blog but I have been trying to find an alternative method for my kids to use while studying for school. I have one child, in particular, that is a bit behind in his education and I had to look at various websites to see what homeschool/after school options were best for his needs.

What is Time4Learning?

Time4Learning is a website that you can enroll your children in for either after school study, homework or just to have a little extra education.

Costs

Since they offer multiple pricing options and sometimes a discount I won’t go into details about costs. However, you are more than welcome to check out their website at Time4Learning.com for more information about prices.

My Experience 

As a parent, I had a hard time finding a platform that would live up to my standards. I want my kids to learn a lot and have fun doing it. I like to also be in control over what my child is learning and Time4Learning allowed me to do just that. With their platform, I was able to assign certain assignments to my son and we also have a nice paper trail of what he has done.

I like the fact that we can keep grades and have a record of everything in case I do decide to homeschool him some time.

My Recommendation

I would 100% recommend a parent to use Time4Learning for homeschool or after school extra education reasons.

I was compensated for this, but this is a true review of my own thoughts and Time4Learning did not tell me what to write.